All right! I'm starting to panic. My first exam in anatomy happens to be at the end of november and I think I've never been this bad prepared in my entire life. So what did I do about that this weekend? Hidd by books away(can't even look at them) and went out partying followed by some uncontrolled shopping in Bergen. Not that smart, I know, but I can't cope with all this shit right now. Seriously, I don't know what to do. I need to get myself together big time, but the problem is I don't know how... How fucked up isn't that...

Time is running by way too fast these days. There's always something on my mind, if not several things at once. There's school, work, training, spending time with my friends besides all the small necessary things. Some days, I don't even have the time to eat. It's crazy and if I don't die of exhaustion in the near future, I'll probably end up in the nut house or something in that direction instead.

On tuesday I have to deliver a 10 page written task. We have a new task almost every week. It's not that difficult, it's the fucking time it takes to write it I don't have.

Anyway I bought myself a new cell phone. sony ericsson 610i. The blue one. Me love it:)

Most people who think they know me, really don't

They don't have a clue! It's best this way I think, cause I don't want to open myself to the wrong kind of people. But as long as I have at least one person who can read me like an open book, I'll be okay.

A real friendship can be so hard to find, even if you're surrounded by the same damn people every day...

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. Everything around me is drifting away in front of me and still I'm not doing anything about it. It's like I'm here, but at the same time I'm not. I can't think straight or even concentrate on what's important anymore. The truth is I'm lost and what's even worse, I don't care. I'll probably always be like this. To imagine anything else seems like a joke. Why can't I ever be seriously interested in what I'm doing? Things would be a lot more easier then. At least I'm not over enthusiastic like some people in my class. They just freak me out! I think I'm in between, but that doesn't mean I don't get frustrated.

Now back to microbiology. BOOOORING!! I'm at school. That's the reason why I felt like writing this. Hopefully tomorrow will be different. Better pay attention and take some notes cause the odds of me reading that book is pretty small.