The last couple of weeks has gone by surprisingly well for me, so well it makes me suspicious. I have my friends, family, admirers, a job that I enjoy and different opportunities standing in line. But I am still tense, having trouble to relax and adapt to having few worries. Something is wrong!

The thing is, when my life is as good as it appears to be right now, I know a breakdown is awaiting soon, as if I'm not supposed to have a happy life. An other example is that I can't look forward to anything I have planned because then it won't happen. Lets say it as it is, I am a bit superstitious and not to mention complicated. Making things difficult for myself is what I do best. I can't control it.