Life is peculiar indeed...

It's in the middle of the night and I just have to write something down. Can't sleep and I have to work tomorrow. Hmm! I think this blog has become sort of a therapy for me. That sound ridiculous I know, but I don't really care at the moment. Oh well, here's what's on my mind tonight.

Have you ever met a person that is so similar to your self that it's scary? The very same day your eyes fell upon that person and you start talking, it's like you've known him or her forever. Still you've just met. And the more time you spend together, the more scarier it gets. You laugh at the same jokes, you can talk for hours, you have a funny way of understanding each other, you share many of the same thoughts and even sometimes finish each others sentences. Everywhere you go, you seem to bump in to one another, like something wants and pushes you towards this person. Soon you develop strong feelings, your on fire. It comes to the point in which all you think about is him or her. And then what do you do?

Screw it all up? Unfortunately that's what happened in my case. I freaked out and ran the other way without him knowing what I really felt. How stupid isn't that? Just thinking of it drives me crazy. Then on the other hand, maybe it is just not meant to be the way I wanted it to be. I mean, what if all things happens for a reason? After all, this experience has prepared me well for what may come in the future. I will certainly not make such a "mistake" twice. But come to think of it, I'm not so sure if I will experience anything like this ever again. Cause this wasn't just one of my many little crushes. No, it was something much bigger. Something I lost control over the minute I met him.