I don't know what's up with me these days. My life isn't at all where I want it to be. I feel like I´m wasting parts of it, that I´m stuck, trapped, not getting anywhere. Bloody hell. Every time I start something, I seem to fail or quit because I´m bored. Unfortunately I get very easily bored. You see, boredom has sort of become my number one enemy in this life.
I also lack so much willpower that it drives me nuts. I'm sick of being this way. But how change? It's seems almost impossible. I may be interested in something one second then tired of it the next. And I mean real tired. Life is a struggle alright.

Then again, tomorrow is a brand new day. A day with new opportunities and different thinking. I have to believe that everything will turn out good in the end, cause if I don't have hope, I have absolutely nothing. I'll work pretty damn hard to get where I want, that's for sure. I will give the future my all, even if it fucking kills me. What do I got to loose anyway....